Deus Ex/Feelings Without
From Unofficial Handbook of the Virtue Universe
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Feelings Without
What others accept
Deus’s emotional state is virtually non-existent. He does not feel love or sorrow, shame or comfort. For the most part, he moves through his existence aware of his emotional impediments but uncaring that he obviously lacks these things which others have stated make life worth living. It is worth noting however that Deus does in fact recognize this as something he lacks. He does not attempt to rationalize it as a benefit, nor put on airs concerning perceptions of superiority versus inferiority.
What he accepts
This makes him appear more or less a logical being, directed primarily by his ego in the Freudian sense. When he does exhibit characteristics that would fall in line with the superego concept, he is invariably faking it, using what he has seen from others and their expectations as a reference to behave accordingly. However, Deus is not directed primarily by his ego. He is moved and swayed primarily by his id. Despite the relative void in him that is the ‘pleasure principle’, Deus feels no judgment value; no concept of right or wrong. Deus would (and has) killed without feeling a shred of remorse, sympathy or pity, and would likely do so again if not for his growing awareness of human morality and his chosen path to emulate it.
What he is unaware of
The lurker in the brush, so to speak, is his instinctual self and the rare emotional state he does attain: anger, which typically provokes rage. In these rare instances he experiences the pleasure principle when seeking redress for these perceived wrongs. The truth is that Deus is capable of experiencing a much broader range of feeling than anyone, least of all himself, suspects. While he knows he has felt rage, he is unaware of the emotional catalysts that trigger those bouts, themselves feelings that manage to escape Deus’s attention.
